Well. That is an interesting question. It infers that somewhere something is going well in your life. Of course, being that you usually swim in deeper quieter pools of water, or a chemically balanced institutional pool, that would fit my life right now. For I have felt like I've been in a quiet unchanging sort of place for awhile now. I keep waiting for things to get a little more interesting- for my innertube to come floating by and take me onto more free flowing purposeful waters. But, that hasn't happened. While I can't blame my family, I do know that the option of getting up and leaving the pool for more exciting water is not really an option right now, so I continue to wait here.
And yes, many things could be said to be going swimmingly. I have great, talented kids, a wonderfully loving and supportive partner, a solid part time job that pays well why keeping me in the black, and plenty of hobbies and interests to keep me going. I just very much didn't want to be a person who lived until they had kids, and then just lived through the kids lives. I often ask my husband, what do we look forward to now? You look forward to graduating, going to college, getting out of college, getting a job, marrying someone, buying a house, having kids and then....watching your kids get married? paying of the mortgage? Retiring? There's a whole lot of living that takes place between the former things in that list and the latter. I really don't think its a mid-life crisis as much as a mid-life loss of purpose. Women it seems are particularly bad about letting their kids and families' goals become their own.
So yes, back to the question. Merrily we roll along, except I keep feeling like I'm stuck in the lazy river, but all in all, it is an enjoyable time, and someday I am sure I will wonder what on earth I was so worked up about?
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